Feeling Blessed

Good early Saturday morning to you! I did not sleep well last night and I finally gave up the fight and I decided to get up. I won’t bore you with the details though! I’ve been thinking about writing this post for a long time and was just waiting for the perfect quiet time to do so.

Ever since finding out that our little baby was a little boy this whole pregnancy thing has become even more real to me. I catch myself several times a day imagining what it will be like to hold and cuddle my little boy and I just know I have goofy grin on my face! I know that my whole world is going to change and I just can’t wait to meet him!

I feel so very lucky to be pregnant and to be having a very healthy and happy pregnancy. There was a time not that long ago where I wondered if I would ever be pregnant. I would look at other pregnant women with a slight envy and sadness. You see, we just didn’t magically get pregnant, we had actually been trying for THREE years! I won’t lay out all the details since as Brain would say, “I don’t think the whole world needs to know “our business” and I want to respect his privacy. I do feel that it is important to mention that yes, we were considered infertile. By medical definition a couple who has been trying to conceive for at least 12 months is considered infertile. Infertility is something that is very common in our world. I’ve read several statistics that say anywhere between 1 and 7 and 1 and 8 couples experience infertility. Yet, I feel it is still considered a taboo subject. I myself didn’t talk about it very much. For every woman I know who seemed to get pregnant with a blink of an eye I know several others who struggle and who still struggle to conceive a child. Even two of my favorite healthy living bloggers Gina, and Emily who are now pregnant shared their long journey to starting their family. And shortly after I got pregnant I started reading Jen’s blog who has an amazing story about how she over came infertility. So this baby feels even more like a blessing since we waited so long for our dream to come true. Yes, I charted my cycles, we visited the infertility clinic, we had blood work done, medicine was suggested, lifestyles changes were made but at one point the doctors were telling us our options were, finding a donor (ummmmm… no thanks) IVF (invitro fertilization) which I was kind of against because a. it’s expensive and there is only a 60% change it will work, and b. I had personal issues with it. Plus I don’t think Brian was thrilled that he would have to be the one injecting me with drugs with terrible side effects, or adoption which I am totally for (my brother and I are adopted) but I know also costs a lot of money and comes with its own challenges and heart breaks.

Fortunately for us we were able to conceive without any medical intervention and celebrated something I thought I would never see on June 21. Sometimes I still can’t believe this is all happening. I feel so blessed that we are able to have a child and that so many people are happy for us. Sure I still have some worries and fears but I know there is nothing I can’t handle with God’s help and my wonderful husband and family. It’s so hard to believe that I can love someone so much that I haven’t even met and have only caught a tiny glimpse of!